From the moment I was introduced to essential oils, I KNEW. What did I know? I’m not sure. I had this solid thing … sensation … hook … in my body. Around my bellybutton and no, it was not the bellybutton ring.
What I do know … it wasn’t a thought. And it began in 1990.
I had no idea what they were. I simply said 'yes’ to a business partnership with a professional nose to make natural fragrances. Perfumes made scents… (misspelling on purpose)
Up until that moment, I was involved in pharmacology so when I’ve been asked, ‘Did you always want to be an aromatherapist?’ I spit my drink out.
‘Um, no. I didn’t choose aromatherapy. It chose me.’
Even though I felt this thing, and stepped into building something??? with essential oils, I would lose my footing at times when swayed by circumstances or somebody else’s thoughts and head off in another direction. This was my pattern for … ahem … decades.
People have wondered … to my face … why I’m not further ahead. Actually, some have been oddly rude about it asking why I’m not a millionaire and claiming I was mentally f***** up! Yup … this happened! AS IF it’s any of their business!!
The division in my world is interesting to observe … just on the subject of aromatherapy. Who knows, maybe I was the focus? Looking back … I was. However, I don’t say this from a point of arrogance.
Life isn’t about you … it’s for you!
I’m not going to lie, there are times when I wish people would just mind their own business. My life is none of their concern. HOWEVER, considering the perspective that life is for me, I wonder about the point to the juxtaposition?
That is until it hit me. My head. I was surrounded by the voices in my head and equally overwhelmed by them. Without a leg to stand on, I was hustling to find my way and make ends meet,
Life is about the journey, NOT about the destination.
With the endless questions, I was not only on high alert, but I was also in defense mode. Armed and ready with an answer at all times.
kids to feed
bills to pay
the world isn’t ready
I have nothing to back my understanding
I lack the credentialing alphabet after my name
The explanations were exhaustingly extensive, and the Truth is, I was being schooled on how to align and partner with my Inner Self. In all honesty, the excuses I gave were facts. There’s something to learning how to quiet the overwhelm by harmonizing the inner world so that the outer world is in balance.
The human MO is to fast track life. I’ve heard $O many thirtysomethings talking about streamlining their twenties so that they could have a cool million or so in the bank by the time they hit 30. Being a millionaire has never been my desire.
As I mentioned, I KNEW essential oils were meant for me. If becoming a millionaire is something that happens, then it happens. That bellybutton thing of mine isn’t hooked on money … it’s hung up on oils and this is where I discovered the difference between a desire anchored in thought versus a desire rooted in the core.
Again, no judgement. A head-space desire is born from the ego. It’s how any of us survive. I hear these hardworking adults and absolutely understand what’s driving them. My life was driven by the same hustle because survival is the strategy every one of us has learned.
My path zigged, zagged and turned out a certain way. Not because I lacked drive or ambition. On the contrary, I manifested EVERYTHING I set my mind to!!
I am shocked by the number of people banking on the doubt and discomfort of the general public.
How to manifest millions! How to manifest relationships! How to manifest money … period! How to manifest a new home! Manifestation … a message suggesting that you don’t have what it takes until ….
I do not begrudge anyone the right to make a living. I’ve been in personal development since 1994. I’ve listened to people talk about desire. Even the word Nirvana means to live without desire.
I used to wonder why. Now I get it.
A desire for something you have to have is fear based. You don’t have what you want and feel angst … pain. Something is missing. Life is incomplete.
Ground yourself. Isn’t this the advice?
Anxiety and depression are on the rise. Could this be due to the fact that there are endless messages suggesting that most of us don’t know what we’re doing? I mean let’s be real … how many manifestation influencers have you heard offer ideas and programs on how to tap into and activate the law of attraction in your life?
For most of my adult life, I didn’t give it a worry. I wanted something and I did what I did to get it. I even created positions for myself. And then around 20 years ago, the Secret made its appearance, and like many people, I fell into the trap that I was missing a cog and needed help.
There is nothing wrong with the way you are living your life. And more importantly, there is nothing wrong with you. Of course, there’s always an opportunity to step up and make changes … that’s part of your journey.
I cannot tell you to enjoy the journey. That’s a choice you must make. And sometimes, when shit hits the fan, it’s not always easy to put a smile on your face. That’s when I learned to pause and say ‘thank you for this chance to learn’. I may not have known what that lesson was at the moment, yet it always came to me.
Hence, the bellybutton desire.
Because of the fast-paced world and ceaseless messages of lack …
(side track) I don’t care how you present it., With all the fuss about how to manifest, etc, the world is losing sight of themselves because all we hear is we don’t have what it takes! We’re lacking something …
… we either disregard the bellybutton desire because there are bigger priorities OR try to force it into existence.
A friend of mine lived by: everything in time. This was a real pisser because I liked to make things happen. That is until I realized the difference between a head driven desire and one from the gut.
Those gut pulling desires are your life’s mission. They are letting you know what IS already yours. The requirement is to settle into it. KNOW it. ENJOY the sensation.
This is easier said than done because we are so easily swayed by situations and people. You honestly do not lack anything. The bridge between here and there IS the delight that you feel when you focus on the bellybutton desire.
What does the road look like between here and there?
Your guess is as good as mine. Our journeys are unique. However, what I’ve come to learn is ships, and apparently planes as well, are off course most of the time. (I hear 97% of the time.) YET they consistently reach their destination.
This means that your bellybutton desire is not a farce. It is your destination as long as you are willing to do what it takes to see it manifest in visible form.
You’ve heard of the wisdom code: I am. Well, there’s also: I will.
Your gut desire is of God Consciousness. Learning to will the desire into existence is honoring the journey and following the path unfolding in front of you. Thine Will be done!
Knowing how to follow is the way … to lead your life!